untilabrighterday

it's recess week :D

2008-09-21T23:47:00.003+08:00

It's recess week, signifying a mid term break.

Half a semester, 7 weeks long, gone just like that.

It's scary how fast things goes here. Crammed with presentations and more presentations, which aint exactly my forte.

But i believe things would get better. Starting to fall into the routine of school, getting used to having seven hours of sleep(which could be quite a lot judging by how others can survive with so little sleep but not for me), but not yet quite used to the thickness of the textbook and the volume of information we are supposed to filter and absorb.

Tomorrow is officially the first day of my week long break, it's back to school for me.

This week would be burnt preparing for my graded assignment due on friday and for my statistics quiz.

Preparing for the 2,500 word assignment is !!! for me. Has not been following through this module very attentively argh it's or bi quek for me lar

Needs more time, coffee and determination

school's started.

2008-08-07T21:37:00.002+08:00

school's started.
note: it's a full stop after the sentence, not an exclamation mark like 'school started!'

not feeling any excitement that a new chapter has started. my last chapter of schooling life has started.

naturally in university u will have more autonomy over what you want to study, plan your own timetable, maybe even plan for a semester overseas.
and this would mean i would have to be more independent, must think front think back, make decisions on my feet when everything is still in a whirl
well, i guess i am used to being spoon-fed.
weird i never used to realised that i was being spoon-fed in upper sec years or jc years.
but now i really can understand how much my teachers and tutors in the past have really done for us that make our lives back then much easier

buck up huixin!
hope this is just another one of those 'adapting phases' that would pass fast.
but what i miss most is going to lectures and tutorials with people whom i feel perfectly comfortable with, so comfortable that i never realised that this could be too much to ask for.

anyway i am on a three-day timetable week.
and the three days are not packed. at all.
my first reaction was yay wahahaa i only have to turn up for lessons on three days
but after much thinking realised it's not that good after all
it just means that i am so going to die next semester because it would be damn packed.
but that would be six months later from now
and there is pretty much nothing i can do about it for now

next monday would be the first tutorial class.
let me meet nice project mates.
kind of understood why my sister backed out from studying business last time
because business is really really really really project based
it's like i have a module with 60% is based on project work assessment
means is pretty much dependent on who i am going to meet and work with
jitters jitters.
let's see how it goes then

for now i am going have an early weekend break

myweekend

2008-06-08T17:17:00.002+08:00

saturday was a whirl packed but i did not mind at all because the time i spent with the people whom i want to meet and outings which i want to go

class birthday celebration today
it is good to know that we still make an effort to push other appointments away and make an effort to go to outings that are planned with much effort even though we are no longer donning our school uniforms
to me, i think that the success of the outing is less dependent on the turn-out rate, but rather if you leave knowing that you have enjoyed yourself and felt naturally relaxed throughout
that is why i prefer smallgroups outings with people i really like where i can really be myself and not be mindful if my behaviour is affecting someone
but it is different now as our lives no longer revolve around the school, the teachers, the homework
but rather our work, our army lives, our future
nevertheless it is still nice to meet these people and know how they are coming by right now

work is ending in another 22 days
looking forward to the one month break that awaits me after that
it is getting difficult to concentrate knowing that the end is so near
the first 3 months will spent in a flash. learning was limited but still absorbed information every now and then
work scope was more simple and direct and work was generally slow and relaxed

the next 2plus months at work was more complicated
job starts to touches sensitive issues and start to have a closer look at other people
work also starts to get tiring and sometimes mood will drop to lowlowlow
however it was really during the past last month when i also start to learn much more and brought away more
may the last 22days at work be more worthwhile spent and may handover be smooth

concentrate at work huixin! just the last 22days to wrap up your work as beautifully as ever and after that a long break(:

every monday should be a holiday!

2008-05-19T15:17:00.003+08:00

it's been a great weekend right now.
every monday should be a holiday! it makes the weekend 10x more enjoyable knowing that can sleep in on monday and lag my monday away.

list of things i have accomplished during this vesak day long weekend:

1. catching up and catching up and more catching up!

2. biking! finally i am able to stay on the bike for a long enough time to actually look around at the people and scenery beside me. but something i realised while i was on the bike is that biking is quite a individual thing. of course you can have people in front and beside you, guiding you and giving you pointers along the way. but when you are on the bike, you have to be independent and think on your feet. I am glad i was determind to keep going on even though i have the lousiest sense of balance and the fear of falling gets at me sometimes. And thanks to the ever so protective shihui, the steady qianzhi and the thoughtful xiuhui who shouted to me when there are on-coming bikes, i think that this saturday evening was time really really well-spent and worthwhile.

3. making one important decision that could affect the rest of my three years in uni. after hearing from my family members and relatives and also doing some thinking for myself, i decided to turn down the offer for the ntu scholarship. i am still going to nanyang business school because it is what i want but without the scholarship. it seems stupid, even when i am typing it out now, but i guess this decision was in me all the while, from the moment i stepped out of the interview room in ntu. I guess it isn't what I want afterall. Nevertheless, the offer was good, giving that i am going to study there anyway, and for a moment i was tempted to take i on. but i guess weighing what really matters to me and how i want to see myself in the future really pushes me to make this decision that i know that is right, even though it seems foolish. It is not that I am afraid of taking of challenges but I do not want to make a promise, when I do not even know what i am promising and whether i would even like it. The feeling of being obliged to do something, doing for the sake of doing, because i have promised to do so does not appeal to me. It is great that my parents are all supportive because they say I have to make a choice for myself. Finally having come to a decision, even though it is just one day before the deadline, makes me feel lighter inside and that i hope that this decision is right (: anyway i don't lose out that much and maybe i would even gain in the long run.
okays ntu business, here i come!

4. recharging for work. much of this weekend is spent at home watching vcds and tv and snacking away with my family. i actually like the feeling that i have all the time in the world and could spend it anyhow i like. even though this isn't all enriching but i think such times like that would be hard to come when school starts so i shall enjoy and appreciate it while i can. anyway mad rush would begin when work starts on tuesday because i have lots of stuff pending and piling up. work ends on 30june and i guess it's really fast given that i have already spent 5+ months at chevrons already and it would all end in another 1month and 10days. till then, i am going to continue working hard and clearing my work and earn money!

on a down note, boss nadia and executive jessica left last week. boss nadia gave me a card on her last day at work and i was really touched when i read it. it seems like she has more faith in me than i have in myself and it makes me want to believe in myself and what i am worth. thanks boss nadia, for giving me confidence in myself. i doubt you will read this but i am wish the best for you in whichever place you will be going to and thanks for showing me someone whom i want to be like in the future(:

i love public holidays!

):

2008-04-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

this is not a happy entry.
looking at many friends who have ended their contract and are now free to do what they want to do, i cannot deny that i am envious of them.
the green envy monster is at work again.

work seems to suck away all the energy and happiness inside me.
it's the responsibility thing again. as you get older, you will have to be responsible for things but responsibility seems to be always land heavily on me.
and it's also the "oh my, i failed people's expectations of me again" that silently tugs at my heart.
i will try to shake off this feeling, but it just seems to keep coming back at me every now and then.

being confident of my abilities and work is difficult for me.
it is about faith and trust in yourself.
something that is seriously lacking in me.
that's why i like days at home where i am free of responsibilities and do not have to mind how people think about me and how i seem to disappoint them with my performance.

need some confidence booster.
hopefully this experience would do me good.
at least as a temp, i can see the end of the road unlike a permanent worker.
it is a promise that keeps me going on when i am weary and sick of it

shall go on and strive to be better at it everyday.
i will try to look at it as a challenge to myself and how far i can go.
and throughout this whole process i will smile and be true to myself and who i really am
at the same time, to overcome my faults and flaws.

be a smiley person huixin!
the luggage of the past would only wear you down.
keep them in mind but dont let them stop you from moving on.
you can beat yourself and your flaws.
it will be a brand new monday where there will be hiccups and mistakes
which u will humbly accept, remember and learn from.
no more fears of this and that, because that may just be what you think instead of the truth.

let this be a period of self discovery, self-acceptance and self-betterment for huixin-

uncertainities

2008-04-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

all the uncertainties ahead worry me
and i am one who show all my nerves & stress & worry on my face.
trust me on that but not that i liked it.
many uncertainties lie ahead of me.
still not ready for the challenges and changes and to be dependent on no one but myself.
not sure how i will fare and
how i would feel after all this ends about three more months from now
relieved? sad? empty? or just plain weird.

going to do some serious planning.
dont worry huixin.
it's just another hiccup.
you've been through worse haven't you,
so show your worth and put your heart into in.

reading old posts

2008-03-23T12:19:00.002+08:00

thanks to my dear friend tay ai wen whom i foolishly shared utensils and food with, i am down with flu and sore throat. but i guess i still can make it to work tomorrow with me popping pills every night before i go to bed. it's just that i am staying home for this weekend

i have just read my entries dated from 4years ago. 4 years ain't long but i had changed so much within this period. some of my thoughts after reading my oldest entries

1. i was foolish and childish. lol maybe it's the same for others too but just have this feeling that my past entries were very child-like, what i did everyday, people i went out with. less of unhappy feelings, more of reflecting on the happy things i did with my class and cca. but i kind of wish that it could remain like that

2. i was a mugger! almost every single entry talks about homework, exams and tests blah. i didn't realise i studied so much in the past!

3. i used very very short and weird 'shortforms' that i wouldn't use now. x-ams, beri, dae, happi, 2, ya, mi, aniwae,... i talked like a kid back then lar but i really wonder if i really did used all these shortforms so naturally in the past

4. my happy entries are usually all in secondary 2. all those after school outing, tiny tiny things, went out after school with blah blah, did blah blah, came home at blah blah time. those were the entries with more 'hahaaz' and fewer 'haiz haiz'. it's just that things aren't the same anymore and people who used to be the center of my life are no longer the same ones.

5. i gave up on many past friendships. council took a big part of my upper secondary life and i spent a lot of my time with them. not that i regretted it because they were extraordinary people and seniors who made my days back then. but i did regret not leaving time for other people and friends who were once so important to me. it's so hard now to step out again to these people and to thaw these frozen friendships.

the past always seems sweeter than the present

it's back to work tomorrow

how i wish i could stay home and spend days away from the rush and burden of working days

it can only be a wish

positive mindset girl! positive!

a's release

2008-03-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

a's results were out two days ago
realised that the road ahead will be more lonely, with people going on really to many different places
not like two years back when i took my o's results
there weren't many choices ahead for me, because i took the conventional path
so did many of my friends and classmates
we weren't that separated, some were just across the road from me
not that this did not result in distance for some of us
but at least we were all schooling and our lives are not that drastically different

but it would be different from now on
where we go on to do different things that matters most to us
as i become more an independent individual
when sometimes you have to eat lunch yourself, go to the toilet alone, ...
what a childish statement yes i know
but to me it matters quite abit right now. food just dont taste good when there is no comfortable company
back in rv where we raised our hands to request permission go to toilet together
and laugh and joke along the way and back
even though hc canteen food is real bad but i like sitting down and talking and eating together

i just need time to adapt

when we were taking our results
suddenly it feels like everyone is alone
it is your name that is reflected on the results slip
everyone in the hall have different emotions on their faces
people were making phone calls
i don't know i just feel that from this moment on, you are fending for yourself
just can't get it out in words

family is more important to me now
even though i lose my temper at home more that necessarily and i feel guilty after that very quickly
it is just like you cannot choose your family
they are just there
and you can count on them to be there always
not that friends wont be there for you
but a home to me it a place that will always be there
a safe place to hide and seek shelter when i need solitude
a place to rest after a horribly long day at work
during the past six yearsw whereby schooldays were long because of cca
or because i went out to play after school
my house was more like a hotel
i spend more of my time outside home than at home
even weekends are spent in schools or outside with friends
didn't appreciate a home that much
maybe because school itself is a safer and more comfortable place as compared at work
it's back to the "i miss school" feeling again

one more day of rest before it's back to work
buck up huixin! 100percent concentration at work!

another friday entry

2008-02-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

friday is the bestest day of the week
work is more enjoyable knowing that there are two days of rest awaiting you

work is going to get more challenging
going to move on to cover another's colleague work as she goes on maternity leave
boss asked if i am going to surrender aka am i going to give up and leave
i told her no. because i promised her during my interview that 'yes, i am able to commit six months'
so i am going to stay put to stay true to my words
but i hope i can learn and pick up things faster
either due to the lack of sleep or sub-conciously my brain refused to take in new information
don't seem to be concentrating on picking up the job scope of my colleague before she goes on maternity leave
concentrate huixin!

i can do it! must believe that i can handle more difficult things!

but i do see some of the positive qualities of my friends at work rubbing on me. i am to be like them sometimes because they give people the feeling that 'you can always depend on me'. and they are very positive and bright also :D

i think my boss has a flair of making people comfortable around her even though she is the boss. She dont have jia4 zi3 but still have the required sense of authority. and she is great at convincing people! maybe all hr managers are like that. i stare at her sometimes then jaw drops hehe

today is friday. tomorrow is saturday. the day after is sunday.
for now, forget about the days after sunday

a photos-entry

2008-02-10T13:47:00.001+08:00

last day of chinese new year break

during the past weeks at work have been looking forward and counting down to cny

nothing to look forward to at work tmr le :/

past few days at home or out was a good break!

when down to china town at night on cny'eve

quite horrible yah many many many people and sticky grounds because of litter and everyone like squashed together trying to make their way through

it was an experience lar because cny mood is high over there lar

ha but once is enough :D prefer to stay home and watch cny countdowns on tv in the newyears-to-come

papa and mama -cny's eve at chinatown 08

me and my sisters after bai nian at ahma's house on first day of new year

somehow as i grow older will become more self-conscious and more foreign to the surrondings and people whom i hardly see. it really takes alot of effort to keep relationships going tough and maintain closeness with people. it takes time, proximity and an open mindset

snapped some photos of my desk at workplace

this is where i spend most of my time during the past month as well as the months to come

my workplace!

quite an open area because it's near the door so people keep walking past

near the pantry, printer, toilet and shredder

heard stories of shredder squashing toddlers' fingers and yah still feel goosebumps sometimes when using the machine

spending my last day of new year break at home!

home is the safest place. a place where you can let down all defences and be yourself

my first pay cheque!

2008-02-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

my first paycheque is here!
but oddly the anticipated excitement upon receiving my paycheque did not happen to me
maybe it is because i didn't feel like i am working veryvery extremely hard and here's the reward for my hard work kind of thing
but having a salary means i get to pay for my own things, spend out of my own keep
must start budgeting already i am overspending!

chinese new year is around the corner
but i am still without new year clothes because i failed to shop for any that i like ):
it isnt like new year clothes are important to me lar because actually i don't really mind wearing old ones anyway
but it sort of dampen the new year spirit
anyway i am still looking forward to new year not just because of the food or angpows
but more important to me is the longlong chinese new year break to let me have a breather
worklife isnt really hectic for me nor are the working hours irregular or blah
but i just muchmuch prefer to school or to rest at home or to go out
something like looking forward to every weekend
actually this should be quite common to everyone
just that this longing for a break i feel is sort of too overwhleming for me lar
hope this will tone down after i grow used to the idea of working and not run away

tomorrow is sunday(: a good day except the notion that on monday it's a work day again
am going to stay home i suppose
and re-watch my coffeeprince on vcd woohoo-

my long awaited weekend

2008-01-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

the past week at work was horribly long.
super blur huixin on full destruction mode again. haha just can't help making mistakes due to my carelessness foolishness blah.
and it's yah my fear of failing is at work again eating myself inside ):
but i am learning to shake off this stupid habit that have stuck to me since secondaryfour

anyway the weekend is here. and this weekend i have decided to stop living at home and enter the bright and shining world outside(:
going out to do some shopping even before my payday and then going class dinner
working makes a person independent because u have to depend on yourself
yes you can ask for help but most of the times u are on your own
which is not good for me because i am always needing people to second my thoughts before putting them in action

have more faith in yourself huixin!

i miss the innocent schooling days

i dread two weeks later when results are out. i can predict it wont be good after i handed in the papers. some subjects are going to be horrid. the lack of confidence makes me think back, if i could have worked harder, asked more, done more, slacked less.

everyone i heard off lately all dread this as much as i do.

yay going to take off on valentine's day! do date with winnie :D but i still havent tell boss!

hope that the next two days can re-charge & gain strength. quality of sleep lately is RARR ): very long dont have the close-eyes-sleep-then-open-eye-it's-morning le. wake up in the middle of the night every night. horrible!

ending off, i just bought clips from my friends who've got this website
http://kupinnco.blogspot.com/ they sell these clips so do patronise if interested(:
very pretty!

weekends are too short

2008-01-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

working makes me appreciate my weekends more.
the past few weekends are spent at home reading, watching tv, or out with my family(:
the thought of going out to shop or dine suddenly does not seems that attractive now

work is more endurable now than when i just started
think it's just a matter of getting used to it
to the 9 - 6.30 working hours
and more comfortable with the people there now
more at ease now (:
work can get monotonous from time to time
must go find fun in what i am doing
but i like my boss and colleagues lar they are nice people who mean no harm(:

fridays are the best
up to now my friday nights are spent getting together with old friends
sharing what's on at work. how school seems much better compared to work.
realise that i am not alone in this afterall
and somehow friday nights i sleep better knowing tomorrow would be a relaxing day spent at my own pace and pleasure
but i hope i will adapt better to work since i have to last all the way till june
hopefully the day will come when i look forward to waking up in the morning and going off to work(: maybe this day will come. hmm maybe not

goodluck to all those working. working makes one miss old pals and innocent moments(:

working-

2008-01-06T12:40:00.000+08:00

it's been three days of work!

and it felt long! okays that is not an exaggaration

it still takes time getting use to working environment, which i find is more complicated than the comfort when studying

i miss lectures, seriously ):

but the people there at work are friendly lar just i resist changes as always

and i think too much sometimes. too tense!

hope i will settle in this new place soon. work is manageable lar just a few slips here and there but the work isn't rocket science

must start calling on people to come lunch with me as frequently as possible! if u in jurong area from 1 to 2pm my lunch hour, do drop by my workplace! i treat u drink coffee (:

yah i am homesick lately. work makes people like me homesick

but i am thinking positive despite all this ramblings. it will get better!

i will appreciate my student life more next time

starting work tmr-

2008-01-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

tmr will be my first day at work
i am employed!
but after the excitement and gratitude that i've finally got a job
the nervousness and fear starts to set in
i've always dreaded change in my life
nervous that my boss would be fierce and demanding
that i would make stupid mistakes (okays that is for sure)
scared that i cannot fit into the environment there
but there are 1001 things that can go wrong while working
but i will make sure that i wont do wrong things twice
thanks winnie for your croc and your encouragement from experience
i will learn, even if it is the hard way

okays i will stay clear-minded and keep an open mind
things will be better after tomorrow!
i am working at chevrons in the HR department
handling membership applications and related stuff
everything's going to be new to me
but hopefully not for long
my boss is a lady and she seems to be a nice woman
she reminds me of ms deborah how
a nice and reasonable lady but demanding at work

i will keep my fears at bay as far as possible
can predict that first few days will be more difficult
but it will get easier i hope
looking forward to a good first day at work(:

lookingatlifefromanewperspective-

2007-12-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

i am still enjoying a jobless and i-can-wake-up-anytime-in-the-morning life (:
but it sort of tugs at me sometime when i know i can spend the same time doing something more meaningful, like earning my own keep. going it to give it some more thought. and go for more interviews along the way. maybe the interiewers can sense my lack of keeness to take up the job ):

but i gave myself a deadline. by early jan' 08 i am going start embracing a working life, whether i like it or not. such a lifestyle can be addictive. eating, sleeping, reading, last minute outings,...

21dec night
met up with some of the class people for dinner at night
the venue didn't matter the least to me
company was more important and it was really comfortable just talking and even jaywalking in the rain
and hear kiameng talking about ns and all the things i didn't know
i want to go tekong and see for myself!
this is what happens when u've got no brothers(yes serene i am envious of u!)
kiameng, u really radiate simple contentment and positiveness. i want to be like that too
start getting me to think of what i really want out of life
and i think i am getting a start in here. time for new year resolutions for '08!

24dec
x'mas eve!
feel that x'mas is getting more commercialised
for a freethinker like me, x'mas holds a different meaning
for me, it is an excuse to meet up with my friends whom some i hardly get to see
a chance for gatherings and having fun (:
slept over at nina house for the first time
i missed my bed!
but i missed the girls more after going home
we cooked up our own dinner
atmosphere was family-like
all the laughing and teasing and pushing and fumbling
anyone can cook!

i am going to spend the next free days with my family
simple contentment-

!prom

2007-12-07T01:58:00.000+08:00

it's been two weeks since As ended,
but it felt like a month.
with all the ongoing buzz and activities, i rather the pace of my life slow down a little for me to better appreciate the people around me, both at home and outside.

prom ended.
college is over.
the past two years in hwachong has been less eventful for me,
which is exactly how i want it to be.
but i am glad i've found a class which i've grown to like, with people who don't mind(okays i hope they don't) the way i carry myself
with nice and warm people who are mostly perfectly comfortable in conversing in my kind of broken language with a mix of english mandarin and what not
i thank god for blessing me with this wonderful bunch of people

these two years have made me look at myself in a different way
a less positive way i think
and to be more cautious when dealing with people
because people can hurt you really easily
whether intentionally or not

on a more positive note, i did enjoy the night of prom
and i am super glad i've got wonderful dajie, erjie and mama who tried to make sure i look presentable
not forgetting my dear winnie chng wei ting who tried to get me to make up my mind so many times
to my class, i think it would be the last time i'll see so many of us gathered together
even though we may get 'cliquish' sometimes but i do believe we do enjoy each others' company even though we love to niao each other so much

okays here's a collage before i end off

superhigh!

2007-10-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

it's seven days to As, and technically speaking we should be studying super hard and hitting our books everyday. which is precisely what i am trying to accomplish very much.

but tonight was different!

(disclaimer: read on only if u are interested in the supermad things that six supermad girls did)

it all started with a message that i received from winnie let's say about a week ago,
asking me to go out with her for dinner today.
at that time i was super depressed from studying because nothing that i studied seems to stay inside my brain

she was late for more than half and hour today! which was like totally not her (winnie belongs to a rare species of people who are almost never for dates. not even classoutings when people like me will never be punctual). that she was babbling in her sms about her being very suay and everything

then when she finally reached i've got my present!

turns out that this clumsy girl accidentally knocked her "castle" against the wall when she was going to leave home and she had to mend everything again before leaving home. don't worry i will restore it! it was really sweet, thanku girl! for taking time and everything to prepare a handmade present for me

and then we made our way to marina square and she was telling me want to go eat some 'sabo resturant'. and when we reached turns out that everything was planned because 5 more monsters appeared at the entrance of the resturant!

and of course as always we wreaked havoc at the resturant! lol the manager didn't look really pleased with us but we were used to that. and we were in our own happy world we didn't mind it very much (: sorry if we spoilt the ambience of the resturant but we aren't young forever. at least now we still have the excuse of being youngsters to shout and scream and laugh all we want

the deserts were really pretty! but didn't have the chance of taking more pictures because we started attacking the icecream

then the next surprise came! sweet pleasure! the first and most reccent time i ate it was when winnie was working part time at bakers' and she let me try it! it was super nice and they remembered i like this cake!

we then left the sabo resturant (i can't remember its name) for yet another place - cartel! we wanted to just eat cake and we took one each of all that is left. then once we started we could not stop!

so we started talking crap. eating. taking stupid pictures. stupid poses. playing waitresses. becoming super high after eating the chocolate rum cake. and attracting a lot of weird stares!

and it's more stupid photos to follow! but we have fun posing for it and we hope we didn't cause any public discomfort while taking the pictures. marina square at 10pm isnt exactly really deserted.

and here's my present. credits to my dear tayaiwen!

it's t-shirt and aiwen drew it. and seriously i like it very much and i think it's very cute :D

and the night ended off on a super high note and nina's mum fetched us home. thanku auntie! in the car we were saying that it feels like As is over. which we know perfectly well is not. but it was a great night for a change. thank you all for coming out tonight and more so because it's seven days to exams and we are all rushing for time. it's time to hit the books again and seven days is not enough but within seven days we still can complete a lot. thank u girls and jiayou! we will do alright (: hold on tight

shall go back to my books tomorrow. i've done this before so there's no reason why i can do this again.

!haarrrry potter

2007-07-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

yay harry potter and the deathly hallows is coming to town this saturday 21st july 7.01am!

and i am intending to go to my dear neighbourhood singpost branch at 7plus in the morning to go collect my copy! woohoo i am going to drag my mum out of bed to go along with me!

i am looking forward to this last book of this series. excited! i think j.k. rowling is a very impressive author! she manages to piece all the books together like a puzzle and everything falls into place slowly. she leave clues in the previous books that are linked to the next book and so on. then i will like "ORHHH NO WONDER.." when reading the book. AHHH excited!!!

when the last book "the half blood prince" came out two years ago, i got the book on the first day. because it was really nearing the prelims, i told myself, "ok, huixin. you must have self discipline and you must study! leave the reading till later! one day read one chapter only."

i finished the book at the end of the same day.

this goes to show my degree of self discipline.

i received my first harry potter book when i was in primary five or six. at that age i guess i am still used to reading books with larger words and fewer pages. anyway i found the first few pages of the book really uninteresting. My attention span is very short so I gave up on the book.

then the three books were left to gather dust and spiderwebs and what-nots for many years.

until one fine day i was really bored and i wanted to find something to read.

and i finished the first second and third book in one go. realised that i like harrypotter a lot a lot a lot.

ok enough of my grandmother story

we shall end with a moral then(to give this entry more meaning):

it's really funny how we often grow to like things that we really disliked initially.

the same logic seems to applies to the best friends around me too.

setters' cafe!

2007-06-30T09:45:00.000+08:00

physics paper3 is sososo far away. will return reluctantly to my books tomorrow.

i went to the settlers' cafe at holland v yesterday with the pb-j2s! lol we used to be the pb-sec3s then we became the pb-sec4s. now we are the pb-j2s!

we had a hard time trying to locate the cafe. on the way there i got scolded by a passer-by for halting suddenly in the middle of the pavement x: it was'nt on purpose! i think he sort of freaked out and started scolding. NEVER stop suddeny in the middle of the pavement ok!

nevertheless, it didn't dampen my day because we were super happy!

we finally found the settlers' cafe with much difficulty. it wasn't in the hiphip stretch of holland v actually. it's under some hdb estate. so we went in and placed orders for the student's special together with set meal. it comes with free flow of drinks and lunch set and 4 hours of gaming! it costs around 10bucks per person so it's worthwhile!

so we nua3 into the seats and started playing board games. i think the super fun game is the Halli Galli!

find out more at http://www.boardgamegeek.com/game/294

its some reaction game which tests the speed and memory. and being naturally born with slow reflex and long lag time i am super slow! haha winnie is super fast!!!but towards the end of the game i got kai1 qiao4 and starting winning! whaah this is my favourite game i want to buy home to play! but each set costs SGD$35. x:

anyway there aren't much people there at the cafe during weekdays afternoon and the staff there quite friendly also. makes time passes very fast. it's a nice place and it isnt that damaging to my wallet also. can go again next time.

rejoice!

2007-06-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

yes!
blocks is over!
ok maybe not yet but it's going to be over in another 5 days
i've got the last paper to go. physics paper3

the past few papers were quite crappy. especially chemistry. it's totally not do-able at all lar. but mama says i should stop studying keep chasing me to sleep. anyway just super duper very happy it's over. was super high today before maths paper. and after the paper chaoji high like some long awaited end was here.

tomorrow and saturday can go play! tomorrow go gathering saturday go shopping. life's so beautiful (:

going to replenish energy tonight. tomorrow's going to be happy day!

i am liking

2007-06-11T21:07:00.001+08:00

i am liking the newfound time where i can sleep until the the sky is bright and not have to wake up early and scrambling after the 6.20am bus.

i am liking the the newfound time where i can eat a proper and a variety of breakfast before starting a new day.

i am liking the newfound time at home with my family instead of coming home everyday after school just for dinner and sleep.

on a more depressing note
the third week of holidays is ending! what a bumper yah. life has been pretty monotonous for this whole week. it's just wake up. pack bag. get to the library. study till lunch with friends. have a quick lunch. back to the library. try to concentrate on my books instead of looking everywhere. clock strucks 6+pm. go home. watch tv. sleep. and the whole cycle repeats. it's pretty boring. but you get to see all familiar faces at jurong library! one more week to go. 2 more subjects to kill :S
i need all the concentration and caffeine and company i can get.

and i can jolly well forget about the one day to just have fun and slack around. i can kiss my holidays goodbye man. nvm shall take joy in studying and enjoy my company. (:

praying for a friend. everything's gonna be alright.

congratulations to me!

2007-06-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

yay this is my fourth official post in this blog and this blog is already seven months old. wow! went on a longlong blog-free period early this year. removed the tagboard and entries. grew tired of blogging and maintaining a stagnant blog with tags to ask me update! but absoluting nothing to write at all. ): kind of sad like your life very empty and nothing's worth mentioning at all. but i am going to start again now! from zero so i earased all the past tags.

suddenly feels very foreign to blogging. it feels weird now to type all this stuff even though i have been blogging since secondary2. but the frequency of entries have been dropping since. from once in 2 days. to once a week. and the to once a month. maybe even once in 2 months. have to get used to blogging all over again

anyway this is the last day of week 2 of holiday. here are the things i have achieved in this whole 14days without school:

1. harmoc concert! it's over. whew! yah the whole of my first week was left for practices. it has been so long since i've went on stage. and i have stage fright yes i do have stage frights even though i have given crappy speeches and performed a few lines before and i have a loud voice. but yah i do have stage fright. i screwed up the latin medley because i am so nervous no sound came out from my harmoc :S but i still thought it was a good effort by many many people and hope that all who were ~~forced~~coerced by me to come enjoyed most of the concert. it was a different style from some concerts i went which were really serious and wasnt really yo my like. anyway was really really happy after the concert to see my papa mama. my class. my gang. it's been a long time since i really participated in a production. and at the end of concert where i felt happy tired excited touched grateful all at one do. thanks to all those who came my papa mama, my class people, girlfriends and to those who msged good luck :D

2. studying. ohgreat half of the holiday is gone and i am not even a quarter through a.k.a i havent even completed one subject.

3. class birthday! it was at the mind cafe at boat quay and it was my first time there. our dearest zhiyun managed to get a reservation and we had a whole room all to ours. she had to do all the work beforehand like reservations, deposit and informing all of us a.k.a all the saigang. but it turned out pretty well because many of us turned up especially our senior class. lots of food. games. friendly staff and a nice scenery at the balcony. it was really pretty to see boat quay at night with all the tall tall buildings and river taxis. lol we were trying to recognise the different logos on the buildings like bank of china and capitalland. haha i can only recognise maybank! and waikuan very smart because she can diffferntiate all the buildings like old supreme court and the new supreme court and everything but i cannot ): haha overall i thought it was money and time well spent!

4. revival of blog! i hope it would stay alive for long though.

things i am going to do:
1. clear my dear table and throw away rubbish
2. spend one day going out and having fun.
3. spend one day just plain slacking at home.
4. spend the rest of the days eat. watch some tv. STUDY.
5. eat mcdonalds breakfast! it's been so long.

huixin

2007-06-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

coming soon!

onemonth

2006-12-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

today's date is 021206.
this means that half of the holidays is gone
quite an eventful month
filled with harmoc practices
chalets
dining out
i actually can't think of anymore more interesting stuff that happened
changes
yah changes to my life and everything
changes that i never knew i will made
changes that i i had a hard time making
changes that i believe will be better
but i am closing that chapter of my life
and going on to a new page
a better page?
perhaps

my blog url is ironical i guess
cause sometimes i really hate myself

!iMOVED

2006-11-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

finally MOVED

was quite reluctant to leave at first. cause i never liked to venture into unfamiliar waters. always preferred to do what i was most familiar with. haha the secondary school the DISC personality test described me as so. but ebloggy is lousy with server problems always.
so i decided to BAN JIA to here. relink me people

OP ended finally. thankgod pw is over. haha pw was a nerve-wrecking experience. but i got to look at things from a different way. to be more exact. to look at people in different ways.
BUT i am still glad that my group supported me till the end. even though sometimes i throw temper and give chou lian. even though sometimes i feel mei you yong. but i am glad. it is over!

and after pw. we decided to go and EAT. haha pizzahut was great.
and i came up with this ARTISTIC creation after i finish eating. but they said it was not nice.
no TASTE. i shall find someone who appreciate my works

huixin's creations ;)

i was browsing through photos in my handphone. and i decided to upload these as well
something that made my seventeen birthday special. this is kinda over due but no harm yups =)
all thanks to my girlfriends efforts. and most importantly nina. she very enthusiastic about this fondue party because she is a pig and wanted to eat chocolate fondue
haha crapping can eating can be so fun =D
and although this year's birthday have been like a mini emotional roller coaster for me. at least these were de 'ups'

the food. and MINDYOU. there is ALOTALOT of food yups. we had to play 26261121 rounds of zhong ji mi ma to finish de food.

the dear host of the fondue party.

the historical moment! aiwen eating cheese LOL

the unglam picture of winniechng. but tooBAD lar you are forever unglam anyway :P

the pig who can eat and slp and continue eating again!

many people had walked into my life.
but as many have since walked out.
these are people whom i once thought were really important people in my life.
but it turned out to be otherwise.
i can only hope that 10 years from now
there will still be this mad group of girls in my life